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Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Without Him I can't, without me He won't

Recently I have been able to notice my weaknesses more and more each and every day. That sounds like a downer to open up in a blog post, but it's the truth. I have realized I'm not able to do everything, I'm only human, and even though I try to do my "lousy best", life gets in the way.

People can start to abuse themselves without realizing it by focusing so much of their energy on their weaknesses and not seeing the good in themselves. Yes, let's work on them, but also loosen the reigns a little and be ok with only being human. You're not supposed to be good at everything, or do everything right, that place is for God and Mary... if you make room in your life for them to do so. It takes a lot of pressure off me by knowing that I can only do so much and then God has to take the rest because I just can't. It's not easy to say that, and admitting to my limitations is hard, and honestly, I don't like it, I don't like not being able to do something and turning to someone else, even if that someone is God.

I truly from the bottom of my heart mean this with every ounce of my being, I can't do a single thing without Him. And I am okay with that, I am happy with that because my dependence on God grew and our relationship flourished even more, and we are able to walk together in sync with one another and console each other, whether my heart is breaking on personal matters, or His for His sons and daughters that He puts in my life for me to meet and be in communion with as He wishes.

I didn't realize until recently, not only can I not do anything without Him, there are things that He wants done that He won't do without me. WOAH, what? God, won't do something without me? He's gentle, He's kind, He's patient and He loves. He doesn't want to do it without me, He chooses to do it with me even though He doesn't NEED me. He wants, more than anything, to be in communion with me, and it's the same for you too. Just because He doesn't need me, if I say no to it, He won't find someone else to do it instead. That place is still held for me because He made it for me and he won't do it without me. Somehow He's placed it in our crazy hearts, He placed it in our hearts to love and desire His will, even if we don't love or desire it right now. Sometimes we have to search really hard if we truly want what He wants and this will bring us the most joy and the most peace in our lives here on Earth.

He is breaking me down to build me up to who He created me to be. I started noticing my desires were becoming His desires and we were becoming one, mind body and spirit.

And I wouldn't want it any other way.

xx, Lillie

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